I have really been contemplating the saying enjoy the journey. I have always thought that I am really good at this. I am a very grateful person and I am the first to see that certain things happen for good and that they truly are blessings. I try to always see the cup as half full.
For the past couple months I have caught myself thinking about and saying things to the effect of "when Devin is done with school." Lets be honest it has gone on longer than a few months. It is sad to say that I can make a list a mile long of all mine and Devin's hopes/dreams/thoughts about when Devin gets done with school. Lets face it Devin won't be completely done for 5 1/2 more years. He has 3 1/2 years of school left and then will complete a two year residency.
You might ask why the contemplation, and why so soon. The reason is because it is already past the middle of January. I can't believe it. Devin's first semester went by so quickly. We have so many plans for the upcoming months that I know this semester will go by just as fast. I have heard that the older you get the faster time goes but I am not old folks but time is still flying. I know with out a doubt that the time is flying because it is what I prayed for. My question now is am I enjoying the time.
I long for the days to buy a piece of land and build a home, have children and adopt children, do my grocery shopping in the middle of the week, stay in my pajamas all day etc. The list goes on and on. The truth is though that I know that I will look back on these days and long for them.
I know how to enjoy the journey. I have been taught how to do so by wonderful people. I guess I just needed to vent tonight and be reminded. Thanks for reading/listening.
My friend Annie gave me the inspiration tonight to type this all out. It feels good to let it out.